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Monthly Archives: May 2008

I spent the afternoon “de-nesting” today, trying to organize/pare off my belongings before I move out of 1539 in about a month. Really, I just want to organize now so that I will keep only things that I’d like to have post-Brazil, but the urge is just to shove it all out the window. I don’t know if it is the time of year or the reality of moving to a different continent but I really just feel like getting rid of everything. It becomes complicated, though, when what you’re trying to trim down is stuff like notebooks and really (seemingly) interesting notes from classes you enjoyed, so you don’t want to get rid completely, but don’t have the time to read them all now….

I did find 23 years worth of journals, and as I flipped through a couple of them–one from my very first trip to Europe with the Iowa Ambassadors of Music and another from my semester in Spain–I noticed quite a few themes that are recurring right now in my head. Without recounting every page, I’ll say that it is refreshing that I recognize my Self in them, a Self that started to speak up in these journals in places outside of everything familiar. I say this because it actually surprised and impressed me to see what I would call “insight” in journals from high school. I thought about this through the afternoon and it made sense why I’m where I am,  on the verge of a great adventure. I’ve been throwing off every bowline that is tied to this ship…inspired by the wind, I follow its flow.

I’m pulling up my roots, shedding some baggage before this ridiculous summer odyssey begins. It’s slow going when you’re not really sure you’re ready to leave yet.